uncertain future

Here is my latest completed piece. "collecting bits of Now"
Thanks for the inspiration Skip, Palma, Dan, Shannon, Frank, James, Ursula, Laura, Matt.... oh there's gotta be more of you 'photogs' out there.... but I gotta keep these posts short (excuse for bad memory...)

I'm feeling a lot of anxiety... like most of you... about the world today. About keeping my job and affording my bills, and my car, and my dog, and my health, and my family and friends, and their jobs and their health..... January 2009 has not pulled any punches.


January 2009.
jobs lost, no prospects..... everyone wondering if they're next
car trouble, house trouble... everything cost double... or more than you'd expect
pipes freezing... gas prices rising.... just trying to stay warm
health problems....everywhere... when will it end?
bodies drowning in an ocean of debt.... keep your head above the surface or sink
With Obama theres hope..... ?.....
I hope... its not too late.

lost in the archives....

Here's a piece I began about 3 years ago and found it in my digital archives this month. I added about an hour's worth of finishing touches and finally decided to call it completed.

Knowing when to stop.

Almost as difficult and getting started.


Title:
disconnect
digital illustration
2009

New Art in process......

Now that I've hopped on the blogging band wagon.... I'd like to share my most recent work in progress. The first image is a sketch from an art gathering this past December. The idea was inspired by all my photographer friends who literally 'collect little bits of now' where ever they go. The second image is incomplete. Its where I've taken it 'digitally' so far.



"collecting bits of Now"
Pencil & ink drawing
2008











"collecting bits of Now"
Digital illustration - in process...
2009







About 50% incomplete... I'm really psyched about whats happening with the multiple layering and different transparencies.

whole
digital illustration
2005

nothing is killing me

I'm starting off my blog with poetry... even though I'm not a poet.
Wrote this last year.
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nothing is killing me

stuck on the edge
of anxiety and nausea
suffocating
in my own skin

lost in a cycle
of creation and destruction
knowing
something is broken

desire and resistance
crash together
sadly
only one will win

wanting only movement
fearing what I want
cursed
these wheels only spin

standing in my own nothing
to lose or to save
buried
in my own grave

last day lemons and honey

The date on this poem is correct. I wrote this last year, on December 31st, a day before moving my final items to the room I was renting on the west side of Cayuga Lake. I have a small car... so the final move included my computer, my dog and my overnight bag.

Happy New Year one year later!


December 31st, 2007


the mileage on my car
turned 100,000 today

at the light by the fish fry
on Bridge Street

missed it by .4 of a mile
searching for chapstick

the sun appeared through the clouds
brought tears to my eyes

lemons were on sale at wegmans
bought six to mix with hot water and honey

honey from a good friends hive
kept in their Liverpool backyard

today I scraped the last of it
from the glass jar

I licked the spoon
and smiled.